Please accept my blessings and well-wishes.
I hope your health has improved.
Many times I felt I was close to death, as you felt you were when you called me yesterday. My prayers at those times were very simple “My dear Lord Krishna, I know you are very merciful to fallen souls. I am one of them. My Gurudeva is very dear to you and to Srimati Radharani. Although I am a fallen soul, my Gurudeva has accepted me as his servant. You are always eager to serve your pure devotees, but they do not like to accept service from you, their Master. If You like, You can engage me in the service of your pure devotee. This will give happiness to Sri Radha and, thereby, you will be happy. That is my humble prayer to you, my merciful Lord.”
For all who take birth, death is certain. That is a fact. It is also a fact that we are eternal spirit souls. We are not material bodies, minds or intelligence.
As long as we associate ourselves with the material body; we can only make the best use of this bad bargain by serving Krishna’s devotees with heart and soul and by chanting the Maha Mantra without offense.
These are the ultimate solutions for all the difficulties we face in this material world. All other so-called remedies are only temporary treatments that may cover the symptoms, but will never cure the real disease.
I pray this finds you in good spirits and improving health.
Swami B.K. Giri